How does that saying go? "The only constant is change." Is that right? Well, that's one of the truths of life, and that's what keeps things interesting.
It was with some sadness and a lot of excitement that I gave my two week notice for my job with Mitch and his Dad today. Working with them was a great opportunity. It was what my marriage needed at the time. It was good for my relationship with my husband, and I was no longer an absent wife and mother. Insurance sales allowed me to attend parties at my daughter's school, eat lunch with my husband most days, and challenge myself in ways I never have.
However, earlier this year I felt a true calling. Friends, I have never felt this before. I grew up in a very spiritual household. I have always known God's presence was with me. However, this year I truly felt Him speaking to me. I can't explain it completely. I do know, when The Lord speaks to you, listen. Close your mind to your own thoughts and just listen for a bit. I was very surprised at what I was hearing.
I've always regretted not sticking with Education as my major in college. I got scared, so I dropped education and went with English. No problem. My ability to read and write has afforded me so many opportunities to which I would not have otherwise been exposed. Each time I get a little restless in a job, I always go back to teaching. Then I always second guess myself and choose a different route.
However, this time, I truly felt my Lord telling me that I need to pursue teaching. I prayed about it. I had open and honest conversations with my husband about it. I sought counsel from a dear friend and lifelong educator about it. I sought counsel from our pastor--also my sixth grade teacher--about it. I kept getting signs, breadcrumbs, epiphanies showing me I was on the right track.
Friends, over the past several months, many things have fallen perfectly into place. I can definitely say, there was a Divine power guiding my steps, conversations, and thoughts.
I'm so very excited to say, I've given my two weeks notice to my current employer and am transitioning into the world of teaching. As I finish my Missouri Teacher Certification, hopefully by the end of this calendar year, I am being blessed with the opportunity to serve my family, church, and community as a 6th Grade Math teacher and After School Care Director for Trinity Lutheran School.
I am so incredibly excited about this opportunity. I am so incredibly scared about this opportunity. I am also very certain that I am letting my actions be guided by a Power much greater than me right now. I can't tell you, as nervous as my worrying personality is about some aspects of this change, how truly at peace I feel with this major career change.
I intend to live my life as His servant. I am right where I need to be. I'm following all the signs I'm being showed. I'm scared. I'm faithful. And, I'm moving forward without any question that where I am is exactly where I'm supposed to be. This is an amazing feeling. I hope everyone, at some point in their life, gets to feel this peace I'm experiencing. When I let go of the stress and the worry, I get to enjoy this wonderfully, unexpected, and crazy ride I'm on.
As I make this transition, I can only be very thankful for my strong faith in God, the support of my dear husband, the support of my loving family, and the wonderful coworkers I will have at the church and school. I am very blessed.