So, I'm feeling quite unhappy with myself regarding how I look, blah, blah, blah. I'm sick of feeling bad about it and starting to make some changes.
For the past week, Mitch and I have been diligently meal prepping and eating clean. We've each had a few cheat items here and there, but mainly we've been sticking to it. The weight he's lost--and kept off--has been amazing, but to get where he wants to be we need some changes. Also, you can't out exercise a bad diet--which, is what I've been trying to do.
So, we are making these necessary changes. One week eating clean and we've both lost some of the water weight we've been holding. I swear my face isn't as puffy as it has been. I feel better and have a much less bloated feeling. Also, I'm not hungry. I'm eating tons of food, but no empty calories.
Rather than trying to kill myself to prep for a race right now, I'm focusing on my diet and weight training to get myself where I want to be. For me, it's so discouraging to feel like a lard butt out running. I'm holding any race training until I get to the weight and fitness level I want to be. I'll keep running, but I'm not going to continue feeling bad for myself when I don't get a 6 mile run as scheduled on a Wednesday.
I'm keeping food and workout logs and documenting everything to help with the accountability factor. With accountability and support, we can't fail!
I'm looking forward to the latter part of my 30s looking and feeling better than I ever have. In my head and heart, I feel like I'm coming into my own and I know who I am. Now I'm ready for my body to match how I feel.